The SIGNS

Well, this article goes for both genders!
I have been relating so much of my girls' love or rather emotional stories. Most of them were devastating and frustrating that it made me think twice and thrice.I came up to a decision if a guy is into me enough he will make it work, I don't want to have a hand in that anymore.
These stories come to common ground of the girl being dumped and the man _ or in another phrase I would say "boy"_ gets "I'm the innocent person here, why did she get me all wrong in first place?
The idea is women are so smart, we get to dissect each and every action, word, look,,,etc accordingly, while men think " women build up these stuff in their minds to each and every thing we do, and twist it into something they want to".
Let us agree that men and women come from  different planets when it comes to thinking and acting.
We act differently in all matters  except when it comes to love we- men and women-  aren't self contained, it just shows on the looks and actions and just a hint for you men (this is why we- women- dissect everything) but for you-men- this girl, girlfriend, fiance, or even your wife is expandable, "I do what I want and she's just there" or" I think I like this other girl, I'm still young I choose whoever I want"
I think sometimes men treat us in a disrespectful and humiliating way which they just don't bare in mind all the time.
I have studied these signs along my past years, and misleadingly I interrupted these actions and what I CALL SIGNS  eventually coming from my brother as some have claimed!I mean one of them may ask you to support them emotionally with a case of  a girl he had a crush on.
Believe me, we all ladies never misinterpret anything especially with signs, you haven't twisted things and got them the way you want them to. On the contrary, you smart and practical concerning these signs, and most of ladies are like that too.
 Lets see what we can do about this phenomena, you are just my friend, you are just my sister, you deserve someone better than me,I'm going to be jealous of the man who'll take you from me   
(when actually it could be him :D) thing,,, blalala.
For us girls lets not expect too much from men and lets not study men's actions towards us, because we are so good observers-by nature- men don't like getting caught of what they are doing.
while for men don't under estimate women's super powers interrupting everything,please.
For all the ladies who have been hurt from fool men- including me-because they just analyze every little thing, at least we care, you aren't making a fool of yourself you are just close to finding a perfect man for you.
Believe, that Allah puts us in the right track, if its not him then it sure is someone else. Sometimes the happy ending is "Moving on with your life" or the happy ending is on "finding good friends" or even discovering a new talent you never showed, or it even makes you realize a " missing treasure".
Don't be hurt girls, you weren't wrong from the beginning it was just them not realizing that you were smart and practical understanding and analyzing their moves that they think was absentminded, Good luck to you finding your path, Hard Luck to you man!

Am I Confused or is it natural?

It's been long that I haven't expressed myself in a piece of writing since i'm in the teaching hassle of kids, paper and homework packs! 
Regardless of what I'm passing through, I'm neglecting my emotional feelings because if i  don't stop neglecting them I'll go crazy.

It's been one year that I have graduated now, and I have realized I'm turning in circles, things is absurd for me, I don't know what I want except I just want to leave this country, my beloved country! 
whom the people I love are here, I just try to find a reason to stay other than that the  people I love are gathered around, I couldn't find any other reason I would stay for! The case is critical here, I want to leave but it's not working out by any means anyway.
I'm trying to be self contained and articulated in this life. Am I trying to run and that's it? But what Am I running of anyway?
or i just don't like people here? or i don't accept my culture? Is it me or is it the people? If I travel, will this change? If I travel will my problems get fixed? Do I have problems in first place?
My mind is just turning around till madness! I have tried out so many jobs, all  of whom I have put my 100%  effort and hard work in every experience I pass through, but for a reason my friend realized that I'm a job hopper, whenever I get a job I think of another :D I do that actually. But lets not deny I'm a hard work person :D :P 
Through this year I have passed through 4 different jobs working on my fifth now, sometimes I work 2 jobs  at a time.
Finally, I believe that God holds the best for me either its career wise or on the personal life. I promise myself I'll concentrate to reach my goal one day.
Which  I’m very singular, driven. I like control – of myself and those around me.” so i'll do my best to take control over my life someday.

keep on judging!

Can you  remember when we were kids and how are parents  always told us"clean your room because this reflects who you are".

Sure you do, but somehow we ignored our parents and we just cleaned it because they said so!

I have realized the meaning of their  words while driving  for a 20 minutes ride to work!

You are probably asking where is the connection here, well Egyptian culture and environment is declining to a worse state among human and countries. You can find writings  here and there on the walls, people shouting at each other, people protesting, stealing and even killing! That's  normal now in Egypt. For God sakes, it reflects who we are; Anger, rage, envy and general negativness in the air. This is all due to "judging others" we started pointing to people and how culture illliterateness exists. But actually we forgot to judge our own instead  were busy what others were doing. Unfortunately, we won't be able to realize this 'society disorder' until severe condemnation takes its pace for soul purification.

I'll start by my own, I'll focus on who I'am, and no more  shallow judging, JUST ME. 

KEEP ON JUDGING and you'll still find  yourself and your country miles behind!

I'd rather walk with a friend in the dark,than alone in the light

While talking with my great and pure hearted friend  about graduation,and how lovely life is!
He was also  scared not to see worthy people as college ones!
OK. Apart that you don't know what is waiting ahead of you  after graduation, you seem to have Quality time with friends ,and to you it really doesn't matter of the future coming  ahead.

Well, let me tell you something from my own experience, friends are your family at college, You almost spend 12 hours a day with them. You pass through hard times, especially during exams, labs, lectures, and buying papers in the middle of  100 people waiting in the line! But sobhan Allah, they pass like thunder when we have good friends.
Of course, we can't forget our lunch times with our dear  friends, LA FRAISE, EL-SHABRAWY,Khoshary, pizza ect.. lots of places that are  uncountable.

The five years I  have spent may have passed in no time my  friends, but the upcoming was even better! NO waking up early in the morning  to catch up your section -but surely you'll wake up very early to catch your meeting with your boss-, you won't stay uplate studying with your friends on the phone, discussing if either you'll pass the test or not. I mean literally, you can finish the syllabus in ONE hour-superdooper student! You may think you have so much responsibilities now, studying, figuring out if this guy or girl has a crush on me-due to ADRENALINE RUSH  exam syndrome  as my friend call-, wondering if you would ever graduate?  They are all natural symptoms SENIORS may have.Regardless of how you feel now, Just enjoy the moment and of those coming ahead. I assure you, Friends stay friends;nothing can apart you from that!
Thinking of the irreplacable moments of our lives at college, but it was never about the place,it's about the people. It's about our willingness to keep our friendship in continuation. Don't be afraid that you will lose a bit of this true friendship.You'll only lose the 12 hours or more you used to spend with your friends and will  only be reduced to half or even less.
Technically; it's logic, because the more you get older the more your  dreams,and responsibilities get bigger!
My advice to you, don't let your job later on to take you from your friends,  because the friend"ship" is the only good thing you'll have from college.

SURE, you 'll meet worthy people after college, but they aren't as worthy, fun, understanding, considerate, respectable, lovable as your college mates;except if you get lucky of course. The cycle or circle of  true friendship may end up by college! Friends will stay Friends no matter what!

Let's Listen to the Article!

While sitting in the kitchen, eating peaches-my favorite of course- and listening to my lounge music, a sense of calm breathed from within!
As human beings we may have lots of diffrences but for sure there are things that bring us closer, music, food, ethics and morals in some occasions.
One of the things that really bothers me is as Merry my friend says "Sometimes you just don't  debate  because a narrow mind  with a loud voice and closed ears are just bad for health"
I couldnt find better words to describe what happens to me on regular bases, either at work or at home occasionally. we are missing the ethics of listening,  I mean you can listen to music better than listening to people now.
For me things would have differed if people gave me a listen from time to time, though I express better in writing than to talking to people......
Will our world differ if we gave a listen to what our parents say,  will it differ if we listened to our inner voice talking in a sense of reality and wisdom?
People defending their group or party just because they are a member of it, is totally unfair,admittng they can never commit a mistake! All parties may relate.
 The point is we attach our minds with a world we have created, unfortunately, we -humans - are disastrous inventors when we create our own world.
Adolf Hitler, I can't believe it that, till this moment almost got 1/3 of the world  acceptance with his ideology!  what ideology were  they talking about anyway! The sabra and shatila as well as Deir Yassin massacres! They were actually honoured in tal-aviv!!- and till  now we-arab- can't even hear our sisters and brothers calling for help at Palestine!

Can you confront Israel for their cruel actions on humanity? Actually, the question is will THEY LISTEN TO YOUR CONFRONTATION? CAN YOU CHANGE THE WAY THEY ACT AND THINK.
It's like someone is telling you I love you, will you listen to them and love them back, or you'll just get to your ideology chooosing the person  regardless of what s/he said?
So what actually happens is we attach ourselves to ideas either in ethics, political....ect and we sometimes  can't withstand people opposing us!  why? because it would prove you are wrong?why do you feel very offensive when someone argues you!
so many things I want to ask to those who don't listen, of course they can't listen, but  I hope  they'd have eyes to read this.
Let's not attach ourselves to ideas, and  insist we are only RIGHTEOUS, let's not be offensive when we hear others opinion! life is simple don't make it complicated.

COMING OUT OF MY MIND TO YOU!

well,it's the  first time I write  in a  blog!

It's lately that I saw  my friends publishing their inner thoughts, so I THOUGHT why not, especially my bestfriend riki who appeared to be a future writer who i assure you doesn't write about her accomplishments :D

It's funny how I feel right now writing about love!-of course cuz I'm practical-

I wanted the word to exist in my life , so I decided to watch romantic movies.

girls if you claim u cant live without your BF, you'd say I love him, I can't forget about him........blabaaaaaa, u r totally wrong, Cuz u haven't seen much LOVE in life, but I got to the  idea that we put ourselves in the state of feeling LOVE,so  it's not about seeing  and comparing anymore.

I finally came up with that I shouldn't wait for CAPTAIN CORELLI AND HIS MANDOLIN :D to appear to me,  cuz I wasn't PENELOPE CRUZE.

SO I THOUGHT again, to lower my expectations concerning with love and to accept the idea  of having hanafy in my life can be ok :D Captain ccorelli please be in my life.

CAPTAIN CORELLI'S MADOLIN# MOVIE, just a funny way to express how I really loved the movie.